Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Your thoughts?

I want to get my nose pierced.  Like this: See?  It's small and classy.  It would not make me look like a tramp, though some seem to think so.  Bummer for me, I already told someone dear to me that I wouldn't pierce my nose.  I'm going to see if I can change their mind...  It's small and cute and not permanant like a tattoo would be.  I would love to hear your thoughts on this because I'm curious about your opinion.  So leave a comment with your thoughts, and I will be obliged.
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Friday, April 16, 2010

And then there was angst

My academics aren't letting me go without a fight! This next week is hell week for me, but I'm pretty sure I've had worse. It's still pretty bad: 12 page rhetorical criticism paper, Intro to Lit CLEP essay test, meetings to study for this essay, 3 dance rehearsals, 2 dance recitals, the last day of my internship!, an abnormal psych final, film festival viewings, film festival award ceremony, and presenting an award at said ceremony. It's not that bad, just three things that I have to extensively prepare for. I can take it. And then! Then I'll be almost completely finished with my college work (assuming I do pass that CLEP test). The next Monday, I'm giving a short report on pyromania, then I have nothing else to do besides go to class and play beach volleyball the whole week. Then I get to play beach volleyball on the beach during senior trip. Oy, that feels a long way away from now, but it will good, and I will regret not spending every second with people because I will be on my way away from them. This makes me think that I should send my schoolwork to the bottom of my priority list, but my reason and my drive for excellence thankfully aren't letting me. I do want to do well, and I want to finish strong. Then I can party. (Without alcohol.) And it will be good, and I will not regret, and I will enjoy every moment I have with these people, and I will cry, and I will laugh, and I will sound like a dork when I write about it before it happens.

Onward to A's and glory!

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Someone else's blog

I stumbled upon this blog during researching for a paper.

Boundless: The Line

At first glance and after only briefly sifting through a few articles, it appears to be a food for thought blog given from a Christian worldview, and I know it's directed towards singles in my stage of life, and that's cool. So I'm posting it here just in cas[p] you want to check it out along with me and so that I'll remember to check it out myself later.

And, also from a different blog, "A Peculiar People":


Rachel via Peculiar People
Buh-rilliant.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Bring on the sunshine!

Woah! Lindor Lindt chocolate in my room? Where did this come from?

I just saw a squirrel use the stairs outside of my dorm room. Made me laugh. Then I saw the squirrel dig for an acorn in the red dirt. When he finished, his paws were all dirty. That made me laugh, too. :)

Spring is nearly in full force. If you're looking for some awesome nature backgrounds for your computer, I suggest you begin your search here.

And now, talk about diversity...

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Be still, my soul.

When I beg God for strength and courage, as I am doing now, I feel... different. Strange. I'm deciphering whether I feel at one with the rest of humanity or if I feel set apart.
  • I am in fierce community with humanity because I need God's strength and courage, as we all do, and because of why I need Him. We are, after all, struggling together in the same mire of sin.
  • I am set apart because I feel as if I am struggling alone. No one is inside my body, inside my mind with me. No one is walking with me through these fervid prayers. No one is experiencing with me the strange worries that I'm not praying enough, that I'm not contrite enough, and I'm not open enough.
I am with the Lord. I am with my friends. I am with my mentors and accountability partners.
I am with the Lord. How could I ever feel alone? Is He not constantly by my side? Is He not attending to me already even before I ask anything of Him?
I am with my Lord. My Savior, my Jesus goes before me. Nothing comes to me without first going through Him. He doesn't just hold my hand as I approach these hurricanes. He carries all of me, my body, my mind, and my heart close to His chest, close to His own heart. I wish I could physically hear the reassurance I know He's whispering and singing to me.

(Let me reiterate: I say "my" struggles. These are not just mine. I have friends who are trudging through the same crap I am. Sharing with them and supporting each other have been so life-giving. Thank You, Lord, for letting me not be the only sinner! I'd rather none of us have to deal with this, but I'm glad that we're together.)

Be Still, my Soul

Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side.
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain.
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change, He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul: thy best, thy heavenly Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.
Be still, my soul: thy God doth undertake
To guide the future, as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul: the waves and winds still know
His voice Who ruled them while He dwelt below.
Be still, my soul: when dearest friends depart,
And all is darkened in the vale of tears,
Then shalt thou better know His love, His heart,
Who comes to soothe thy sorrow and thy fears.
Be still, my soul: thy Jesus can repay
From His own fullness all He takes away.
- Katharina A. von Schlegel (1752) Full song here.
I will Praise Him Still
When the morning falls on the farthest hill,
I will sing His name, I will praise Him still.
When dark trials come and my heart is filled
With the weight of doubt, I will praise Him still.
For the Lord our God, He is strong to save
From the arms of death, from the deepest grave.
And He gave us life in His perfect will,
And by His good grace, I will praise Him still.
- Fernando Ortega (1997) Listen here.

May your own soul take heart. At this time, may I ask that you keep me in mind. I covet your prayers.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Alabama the Beautiful

I have stumbled upon a new concept: Cross that bridge when you come to it. (Anxiety doesn't help a thing.)

I had a mini adventure yesterday! I drove 4 hours to Huntsville, AL from my home in GA. I've never driven that far by myself before, and, because I ended up missing so many of the turns the GPS prescribed for me, I ended up driving on more or less back roads through small towns with strange names. I drove past the Talladaga speedway track, through a place called Rainbow City, through two National Parks, over many, many lakes. and the Tennessee River. I passed a large, black sign with fire on it that said, "All sinners have their place in HELL. Revelation 21:8" On the side it said, "Whoremongers, Divorce, Television." I had to laugh. I saw another church sign that said, "God's not mad at you, no matter what." I wish that I had seen these two signs right next to each other.

I stopped by the side of the road in a town called Attalla because I saw a trailer advertising boiled and roasted peanuts and fried pies. I knew that Dad would shoot me for passing up a fried pie, so I pulled over and stepped inside the trailer, just a little wary because I'm a 20-something girl traveling alone. No need to worry, though, because the one customer inside and the old gentleman selling the good were both kind Southern men. I walked in on this conversation:
"And how much is this bag of peanuts?"
"That big one's $15."
"Ah. I see I'm $3 short."
"That's all right. You can pay me later. You live nearby, don't ya?"
"Naw, I live on the south side."
"Well, no problem. I trust ya."
Then the customer ushered me into the small "store" and let me try one of the sweet pecans he had just bought. When it was my turn to order, I asked for a peach fried pie and a small bag of those Cajun spiced walnuts. The vendor chatted with me the whole time and asked if I would be eating the pie soon so that he could warm it up in the microwave for me. The first customer came back in, and I asked him to try one of my walnuts. They're all right, he says. When I was paying for my food, I mentioned to the vendor that I was traveling from GA to Huntsville. He tells me to be careful driving, it is Spring Break time, after all, and there are lots of crazy people driving all around. I told him that I'd be careful. He explained himself a bit more (I think he might have thought that I Was just brushing off his warning), and said that he tells his daughter the same thing. With smiles all around, I departed, snapped a picture of the place, and headed on.

It was a lovely drive with my sunglasses, my music, and the windows down nearly the entire time. The sunset was beautiful, and I almost swerved off the road a few times because I was staring at it too long. Alabama really is beautiful, and I found myself thinking that I like the South much more than I let on. I should let on.